A young woman striving for rebellious authenticity
WHO AM I?
1. Hey, my name is D.
2. I'm a young mama and wife.
3. I'm a beloved, adored child of God. And so are you, by the way.
THE LITANIES:
Can someone just feed these to me through an earpiece on loop forever?
Humility
Written By: Rafael Cardinal merry del val y zulueta
O Jesus, meek and humble of heart, hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being loved, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being extolled, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being honored, deliver me jesus.
From the desire of being praised, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being preferred to others, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being consulted, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being approved, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being humiliated, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being despised, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of suffering rebukes, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being calumniated, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being forgotten, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being ridiculed, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being wronged, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being suspected, deliver me jesus.
that others may be loved more than i, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may be esteemed more than I, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and i may decrease, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be chosen and i set aside, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may be praised and i unnoticed, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may be preferred to me in everything, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may become holier than i, provided that i may become as holy as i should, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
Amen
pATIENCE
WRITTEN BY CHRISTINA DEHAN JALOWAY
FROM THE DESIRE TO CONTROL MY LIFE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM RASH JUDGEMENT AND HASTE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPULSIVE DECISION MAKING, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DESIRE TO ACT WHEN I NEED TO BE STILL, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DESIRE TO SPEAK WHEN I NEED TO STAY SILENT, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DELUSION THAT MY OWN IDEAS AND PLANS WOULD BE BEST, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPATIENCE WITH THE SINS AND IDIOSYNCRACIES OF OTHERS, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPATIENCE WITH MY OWN SINS AND SLOW GROWTH IN VIRTUE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPATIENCE WITH YOUR PLAN FOR MY LIFE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DESIRE TO LIVE ON MY OWN TIMELINE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF RUNNING OUT OF TIME, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF AGING AND DEATH, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE TEMPTATION TO ACT OUT OF SORROW, DISCOURAGEMENT, ANXIETY, OR FEAR, DELIVER ME JESUS.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY WAIT UPON YOUR WORD BEFORE MAKING IMPORTANT DECISIONS.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY NOT GET AHEAD OF OR BEHIND YOUR SPIRIT.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY MAINTAIN AN ETERNAL PERSPECTIVE IN ALL THAT I DO.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY ACCEPT AND SURRENDER TO YOUR WILL FOR ME DAILY.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY TRULY BELIEVE THAT ALL THINGS WORK FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY RADIATE TO OTHERS YOUR PEACE AND JOY WHICH SURPASS ALL UNDERSTANDING.
Amen
tRUST
WRITTEN BY sR. fAUSTINA mARIA PIA OF THE SISTER OF LIFE
FROM THE BELIEF THAT I HAVE TO EARN YOUR LOVE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR THAT I AM UNLOVABLE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FALSE SECURITY THAT I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR THAT TRUSTING YOU WILL LEAVE ME MORE DESTITUTE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM ALL SUSPICION OF YOUR WORDS AND PROMISES, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE REBELLION AGAINST CHILDLIKE DEPENDENCY ON YOU, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM REFUSALS AND RELUCTANCES IN ACCEPTING YOUR WILL, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM ANXIETY ABOUT THE FUTURE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM RESENTMENT OR EXCESSIVE PREOCCUPATION WITH THE PAST, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM RESTLESS SELF-SEEKING IN THE PRESENT MOMENT, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISBELIEF IN YOUR LOVE AND PRESENCE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF BEING ASKED TO GIVE MORE THAN I HAVE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE BELIEF THAT MY LIFE HAS NO MEANING OR WORTH, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF WHAT LOVE DEMANDS, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISCOURAGEMENT, DELIVER ME JESUS.
THAT YOU ARE CONTINUALLY HOLDING ME, SUSTAINING ME, LOVING ME, JESUS, i TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOUR LOVE GOES DEEPER THAN MY SINS AND FAILINGS, AND TRANSFORMS ME, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT NOT KNOWING WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS IS AN INVITATION TO LEAN ON YOU, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU ARE WITH ME IN MY SUFFERING, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT MY SUFFERING, UNITED TO YOUR OWN, WILL BEAR FRUIT IN THIS LIFE AND THE NEXT, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME AN ORPHAN, THAT YOU ARE PRESENT IN YOUR CHURCH, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOUR PLAN IS BETTER THAN ANYTHING ELSE, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU ALWAYS HEAR ME AND IN YOUR GOODNESS ALWAYS RESPOND TO ME, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU GIVE ME THE GRACE TO ACCEPT FORGIVENESS AND TO FORGIVE OTHERS, JESUS, i TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU GIVE ME ALL THE STRENGTH i NEED FOR WHAT IS ASKED, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT MY LIFE IS A GIFT, JESUS I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU WILL TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOU, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU ARE MY LORD AND MY GOD, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT I AM YOUR BELOVED ONE, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU. AMEN.
jOY
WRITTEN BY COLLEEN COLLETTE
FROM MY NEED TO BE IN CONTROL, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DISTORTED VIEW OF WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISAPPOINTMENT AND DISCOURAGEMENT IN THE WEAKNESS OF OTHERS, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISAPPOINTMENT AND DISCOURAGEMENT IN MY OWN WEAKNESSES, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM LETTING THE EVIL ONE CONTROL MY REACTIONS THROUGHOUT MY DAY, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE LIE THAT YOU ARE FAR FROM ME, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE MOMENTS WHEN I PLACE MY IDENTITY IN SOMEONE OR SOMETHING ELSE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM MY FEAR OF DISCOMFORT AND SUFFERING, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE LIE THAT I AM NOT ENOUGH, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE LIE THAT YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH AND CANNOT FULFILL THE LONGINGS OF MY HEART, DELIVER ME JESUS.
IN THE TIMES I AM FEELING THE WEIGHT OF MY CROSS, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
iN TIMES OF CONFUSION, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM AFRAID, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN THE TIMES I FEEL OVERWHELMED, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN THE TIMES WHEN I FEEL YOUR PEACE, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF FRIENDSHIP AND COMMUNITY, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF MISUNDERSTANDING AND HURT, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM JEALOUS, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM ANGRY, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM FIGHTING TEMPTATION, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF PLANNING AND WORK, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES WHEN I AM TIRED, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF DOUBT, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I CANNOT SEE THE FUTURE AHEAD OF ME, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
AT ALL TIMES, SEASONS, AND MOMENTS IN MY LIFE, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
AMEN
Humility
Written By: Rafael Cardinal merry del val y zulueta
O Jesus, meek and humble of heart, hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being loved, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being extolled, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being honored, deliver me jesus.
From the desire of being praised, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being preferred to others, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being consulted, deliver me jesus.
from the desire of being approved, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being humiliated, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being despised, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of suffering rebukes, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being calumniated, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being forgotten, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being ridiculed, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being wronged, deliver me jesus.
from the fear of being suspected, deliver me jesus.
that others may be loved more than i, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may be esteemed more than I, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
That, in the opinion of the world, others may increase and i may decrease, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be chosen and i set aside, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may be praised and i unnoticed, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may be preferred to me in everything, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
that others may become holier than i, provided that i may become as holy as i should, jesus grant me the grace to desire it.
Amen
pATIENCE
WRITTEN BY CHRISTINA DEHAN JALOWAY
FROM THE DESIRE TO CONTROL MY LIFE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM RASH JUDGEMENT AND HASTE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPULSIVE DECISION MAKING, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DESIRE TO ACT WHEN I NEED TO BE STILL, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DESIRE TO SPEAK WHEN I NEED TO STAY SILENT, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DELUSION THAT MY OWN IDEAS AND PLANS WOULD BE BEST, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPATIENCE WITH THE SINS AND IDIOSYNCRACIES OF OTHERS, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPATIENCE WITH MY OWN SINS AND SLOW GROWTH IN VIRTUE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM IMPATIENCE WITH YOUR PLAN FOR MY LIFE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DESIRE TO LIVE ON MY OWN TIMELINE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF RUNNING OUT OF TIME, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF AGING AND DEATH, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE TEMPTATION TO ACT OUT OF SORROW, DISCOURAGEMENT, ANXIETY, OR FEAR, DELIVER ME JESUS.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY WAIT UPON YOUR WORD BEFORE MAKING IMPORTANT DECISIONS.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY NOT GET AHEAD OF OR BEHIND YOUR SPIRIT.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY MAINTAIN AN ETERNAL PERSPECTIVE IN ALL THAT I DO.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY ACCEPT AND SURRENDER TO YOUR WILL FOR ME DAILY.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY TRULY BELIEVE THAT ALL THINGS WORK FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU.
lORD, TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOUR LOVE SO ENTIRELY THAT I MAY RADIATE TO OTHERS YOUR PEACE AND JOY WHICH SURPASS ALL UNDERSTANDING.
Amen
tRUST
WRITTEN BY sR. fAUSTINA mARIA PIA OF THE SISTER OF LIFE
FROM THE BELIEF THAT I HAVE TO EARN YOUR LOVE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR THAT I AM UNLOVABLE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FALSE SECURITY THAT I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR THAT TRUSTING YOU WILL LEAVE ME MORE DESTITUTE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM ALL SUSPICION OF YOUR WORDS AND PROMISES, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE REBELLION AGAINST CHILDLIKE DEPENDENCY ON YOU, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM REFUSALS AND RELUCTANCES IN ACCEPTING YOUR WILL, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM ANXIETY ABOUT THE FUTURE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM RESENTMENT OR EXCESSIVE PREOCCUPATION WITH THE PAST, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM RESTLESS SELF-SEEKING IN THE PRESENT MOMENT, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISBELIEF IN YOUR LOVE AND PRESENCE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF BEING ASKED TO GIVE MORE THAN I HAVE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE BELIEF THAT MY LIFE HAS NO MEANING OR WORTH, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE FEAR OF WHAT LOVE DEMANDS, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISCOURAGEMENT, DELIVER ME JESUS.
THAT YOU ARE CONTINUALLY HOLDING ME, SUSTAINING ME, LOVING ME, JESUS, i TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOUR LOVE GOES DEEPER THAN MY SINS AND FAILINGS, AND TRANSFORMS ME, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT NOT KNOWING WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS IS AN INVITATION TO LEAN ON YOU, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU ARE WITH ME IN MY SUFFERING, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT MY SUFFERING, UNITED TO YOUR OWN, WILL BEAR FRUIT IN THIS LIFE AND THE NEXT, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU WILL NOT LEAVE ME AN ORPHAN, THAT YOU ARE PRESENT IN YOUR CHURCH, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOUR PLAN IS BETTER THAN ANYTHING ELSE, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU ALWAYS HEAR ME AND IN YOUR GOODNESS ALWAYS RESPOND TO ME, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU GIVE ME THE GRACE TO ACCEPT FORGIVENESS AND TO FORGIVE OTHERS, JESUS, i TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU GIVE ME ALL THE STRENGTH i NEED FOR WHAT IS ASKED, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT MY LIFE IS A GIFT, JESUS I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU WILL TEACH ME TO TRUST IN YOU, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT YOU ARE MY LORD AND MY GOD, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.
THAT I AM YOUR BELOVED ONE, JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU. AMEN.
jOY
WRITTEN BY COLLEEN COLLETTE
FROM MY NEED TO BE IN CONTROL, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE DISTORTED VIEW OF WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISAPPOINTMENT AND DISCOURAGEMENT IN THE WEAKNESS OF OTHERS, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM DISAPPOINTMENT AND DISCOURAGEMENT IN MY OWN WEAKNESSES, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM LETTING THE EVIL ONE CONTROL MY REACTIONS THROUGHOUT MY DAY, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE LIE THAT YOU ARE FAR FROM ME, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE MOMENTS WHEN I PLACE MY IDENTITY IN SOMEONE OR SOMETHING ELSE, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM MY FEAR OF DISCOMFORT AND SUFFERING, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE LIE THAT I AM NOT ENOUGH, DELIVER ME JESUS.
FROM THE LIE THAT YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH AND CANNOT FULFILL THE LONGINGS OF MY HEART, DELIVER ME JESUS.
IN THE TIMES I AM FEELING THE WEIGHT OF MY CROSS, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
iN TIMES OF CONFUSION, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM AFRAID, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN THE TIMES I FEEL OVERWHELMED, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN THE TIMES WHEN I FEEL YOUR PEACE, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF FRIENDSHIP AND COMMUNITY, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF MISUNDERSTANDING AND HURT, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM JEALOUS, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM ANGRY, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I AM FIGHTING TEMPTATION, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF PLANNING AND WORK, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES WHEN I AM TIRED, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
IN TIMES OF DOUBT, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
WHEN I CANNOT SEE THE FUTURE AHEAD OF ME, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
AT ALL TIMES, SEASONS, AND MOMENTS IN MY LIFE, JESUS, COME BE MY JOY.
AMEN
